"On the other side of that door, here is what you don’t know: I am aching and I am still in love with you. You don’t know this because I haven’t told you. I haven’t told you because I am not the same kind of brave that you are. I have to remind myself to be sorry a hundred times a day for not being what you need. I have not learned to peel myself like you. I have not learned to stand naked in front of people and not worry that they’re going to ruin me. Here is to you. Here is to your proud vulnerability. I am still learning. One day I will tell you with my chin up, proud. One day I will let you hold the shaking nerves of me. But today, I am still learning."